There’s not much progress made, but every little thing counts when you’re fighting yourself to get things done. I haven’t talked about it yet, but I suffer from depression and anxiety. I have medications that help, but it doesn’t stop all the symptoms.
Everyone’s mental illness is different, even if it’s called the same thing. My depression presents in me avoiding the things I really enjoy doing. I have crafts to finish and paintings to make and I can’t get going on any of them. But I did manage to get a few things done. Some for the store, some for myself.
I uploaded and finagled the store logo for a print on demand site. It’s just the one for now, but it was a struggle to get that up. The ‘what if’ gang was in my head, making me anxious about failure and success. What if no one bought them? Once I post this, I’m committed to this store! I’ll never be able to leave and I’ll be trapped!
Just some of the thoughts that went through my head. I shared some with my friends, who are the other artists on the store, and they made me feel better just by listening. Sometimes that’s all you need. I know I’ve taken on a lot of responsibility with this store, and I’m planning on doing even more as the months go by, which is psychotic. But here we are.
I haven’t found out how to monetize the blog yet, I have been avoiding the research to do just that. I signed up for a free week of Coursera, but I haven’t signed up for any of the bookkeeping classes I got it for. I’m going to run out of free trial before ever getting any education.
I’m dealing with mini emergencies: my contact got stuck in my eye and now I look like I have pink eye and it still hurts and is irritated; I live in an RV and I went to empty the black tank (sewer line) and the hose broke and leaked foul putrid liquid in my yard. And that’s just the past three hours!
But there are some wins too. I cleaned the cat litter boxes. I did the dishes (not all, but a significant percentage) and cleaned off the dish dryer. I got the trash can out to the street on time. I went to work today and got all my work goals done. I have to celebrate these wins so the rest doesn’t get me too down.
That’s it for now. Except I did get this blog done, even though it’s half a week late. That’s a win too.